Just the other day, my cousin asked me, “Have you ever thought about committing suicide?” I said, “Uh, you better not do that.” I don’t think she wanted to commit suicide. I think she was just starting the conversation because she is dating a guy that tried to commit suicide in the past.
But what I didn’t tell her is that I did think about suicide before. I never considered actually doing it, but I have said to myself, “I just want to leave this earth right now.” I was raised Christian, so I know better than to kill myself. But I did think about “leaving this earth” many times.
I used to have a moment when I couldn’t understand why anyone would want to kill themselves. But life got difficult for me for a few years, and all of a sudden I understood why people felt like suicide was they’re only option.
What kept me on the right path was of course my religion, but it was also the passion that I had for what I felt I was called to do. Deep down inside, everyone feels like they have a purpose. They may have never pursued that purpose, but we all know we have one.
What keeps you wanting to live is knowing that your purpose is more important than your death. Our purpose in life is bigger than life itself. For God to give us all a gift is just about the best thing that could ever happen to us. It’s up to you if you want to take that gift and use it.
Your gift can look as if it’s nonsense, or as if it’s too small, but if it brings you joy, then it is indeed a GIFT. You just have to love yourself enough to stick around and use it.
And you also have to love the people around you. You may not want to live, but your parents, friends, classmates, teachers, and the rest of your peers want you to. Imagine how they would feel if you selfishly took yourself away from them.
We are a gift to the people around us. You may not be happy right now, but know that there are lots of people in this world that are going through what you are going through. Some of them are going through much worse things than you are! But what makes them different from others is that they are strong enough to keep pushing forward.
Suicide is not a way to stop the battle-it’s a way to lose the battle. When you commit suicide, you are throwing in the towel. Don’t throw in the towel. That’s for losers. Winners fight till the end. They don’t give up just because the road got bumpy.
Listen to the audio I recorded called “How to Find Your Niche” and read Love Thy Self: The Formula For Self Esteem.