I have so many wonderful things in my life.
And I always have.
But I’ve always been very unhappy.
My dissatisfaction with life has grown ever more so recently.
I have lost all motivation.
I have no idea what makes me happy or anything I feel passionate about.
I don’t enjoy anything.
And yet, I have so much love and support and abundance in my life.
So how could I be so unhappy, you ask?
I am not honoring myself.
I wake up everyday and just go through the motions.
I am a drone.
I am a slave to my insecurities, fears, desires.
And it hurts.
I have lost all faith in myself.
I have lost faith in all that I can achieve.
I constantly tell myself I can’t do things.
I’m tired of trying.
I’m just tired.
I have been having serious bouts of depression.
Nervous/emotional breakdowns.
Anger issues.
Frustration.
There is some kind of disconnect happening within.
It is like my ego is trying desperately to win while my heart takes the sidelines once again.
I am trying so hard to achieve, to do.
I’m forgetting to appreciate all that is good in my life.
I’m forgetting to listen to my heart, not my head.
My ego is getting the best of me.
My thoughts are overwhelming my world.
I am so stressed.
Something needs to change.
This is a divine opportunity for me to realize that life is forcing me to make my life my own.
I have become a victim of my circumstances. But it doesn’t have to be that way.
So what if I don’t know anymore what I want to be doing with my life.
Life is forcing me to slow down.
Life is forcing me to become better.
Life is forcing me to be my true self.
I do not have to make myself miserable.
I can do anything I want.
We don’t all have to be so miserable all the time.
It’s all about choice.
It’s all about perspective.
It’s constantly telling yourself that, “Today, I am choosing to be happy”, and then constantly telling yourself that everytime you notice you are not happy.
We are taught that we can’t. We can’t be happy. We can’t do this, we can’t do that.
We can only be miserable.
And that’s a shame.
Life is constantly teaching us lessons. We are always being given opportunities to make choices to live the life we really want.
It is up to us to be bold enough to take chances.
It is up to us to not be afraid to be powerful. To know our own power. To know the abundance of love that lies within.
We don’t need to be victims of circumstance.
We can live the lives we want.
We just have to believe in ourselves and know that we are taken care of.