Seeing you today was real
A moment I thought I would dread
But finally I was able to say a part of what I needed to say
To express myself without becoming a total basket case.
Seeing you today brought back the pain
Of losing you but I held strong and kept my composure
Realizing touching you the way I want is not an option
That you are no longer mine
Even though I have not stopped caring for you.
You were and always will be the love of my life.
What I desired was to throw my arms around you
To hold you and hope that you would feel my love
To hold you until the fear in us would subside
I desire to hear those words you once said and I knew to be true.
I desire to feel the touch of your hand Where I found peace and comfort.
I desire to feel the touch of your lips upon mine
The sweet softness of your love you expressed at one time
I desire to just be in a room with you, dark, silent
Quietly holding each other sheltering us from the cruel world
Finding strength from your touch to once again go out
and Face the difficulties of today yet feeling strong knowing that
At the end of the day I would be back safe within your arms
To feel your love to regain my strength.
But today seeing you made the world real
Seeing that you are not gone completely from my life
That even though we are no longer one there will always be a connection
I will always see you through eyes of unconditional and undying love
That you joy you brought to my life far outweighs any pain thereafter.
And I as I walk away I take pride in the ability to say:
When you truly love someone it will never die.
You will always have unconditional love for them.
They will always hold a place in your heart.
And that Forgiveness is easy when the happy
no matter how Short the time will always outweigh the pain
Forever Heart, Body and Soul