I saw my own future. I witnessed my own future right in front of my eyes. It took less than a second, then my eyes were open forever.
I wanted to go surfing so bad that day that nobody could stop me. It seemed that the ocean was calling me at nights when I was in my sleep. That day I took my mountain bike, my rack and my surfboard and headed for the beach. There was a slight rain falling down and the surf was big. The waves were crashing on top of the eight foot pier and a strong under toe made swimming and surfing really hard. People didn’t dare to go out and the life guards were warning them about the dangers they faced in that particular day, but I never listened to them.
“Attention surfers and swimmers, today there is a dangerous under toe. Stay off the water. I repeat, stay off the water.”
I ignored the warnings and continued swimming toward the waves. However, it was very hard to swim over them, for every time I would swim under a wave, a bigger one would break over my head. I was mad as hell until I decided I had enough. Then, without thinking, I challenged the ocean and from my mouth came a blasphemy.
“Ocean, I challenge you to see who is more powerful.”
Then the ocean, like with Moses, opened up its waters. I was finally out.
There were mountains of water. I went over one, another and another. It seemed that the waves were getting bigger and bigger. Every time a bigger wave came in, there was another one even bigger. I kept on paddling until one wave as big as a hill, came and wiped me off my surfboard.
Suddenly, I was without my surfboard. I could see it right by the rocks floating softly, like waiting for me. Then, as I tried to swim toward it, I felt a hand pulling me to the bottom of the ocean.
I woke up, just like in a dream, but I knew it was not a dream. I was at the bottom of the ocean. I could see the white sand flat and calm. The sunlight was shining up there showering me with its golden rays.
I was floating ten feet under the surface. My eyes were open and I was thinking, but the rest of me was not moving. I kept on wondering if I was dead or alive.
“I can’t be dead; it feels so stupid to be dead. Am I breathing? Is it possible to breath underwater like a fish? I am dead. No, I don’t want to be dead.”
I could see the bottom of the ocean with its white and thin sand. I even saw the sunlight up there. My brain was dying along with my eyes. Apparently, they were the last ones to die. I kept thinking and wondering:
“Is this what it is called dying?”
Suddenly, like in a dream, I woke up and I knew I was given a second chance. Like a dying fish I shook my body with courage. I kept on swimming up to the surface. Finally my head emerged and took a long and deep breath. Then right in front of me, millions of images appeared along with voices. It was just like a movie playing in the sky, the movie of my life in one second. The whole sky was like a screen and I was the only spectator.
My past, my present and my future appeared to me in less than a second and my life was changed forever.
I still remember all. In pieces of dreams, I can see what is coming. Who will die, when and how? Who will come into my future and sadly, who will leave. It is hard to know and not be able to change things around. I hear death laughing at me, reminding me about what I have done.
“Ha, ha, ha, ha. I will take everyone before you. You will be the last one of your tribe to die. This is your penitence for defying nature laws. God has given you a new destiny. You have seen what only God’s eye could only see. The screen of your life, other people’s lives. You have eaten from the forbidden tree and now you must pay for it. For wanting to be like God. You will witness what God has witnessed since the universe was created. This is your hell.”
It was gone in a microsecond, but I was changed forever. I can still hear the voices calling me, protecting me. I am the chosen one.
“You have selected yourself. Your natural instinct and curiosity made you go into forbidden places. You have opened the doors which should have been locked forever.”
My never ending wanting to know. All of those books, the technology. All I wanted was a family. All I wanted was to live a normal life, but it is too late now. Now I know why I was allowed to live. They are always protecting me because I have been cursed. I am cursed to be the last one of my tribe. Me the youngest one, will be the last one. The oldest one. The Methuselah.
“You have been chosen to start a new race. A new people. You have the new seed. The others will perish. This is why I did not take you when you were an innocent baby. This is why I have let you live so many times. This is why so many friends have died in your place, because God needs you to live.”
This is my life. I am able to see and hear things before me. I can’t stop things from happening. I can’t change people’s lives. Changing them would be another blasphemy. I don’t pretend to be God or Jesus. This is just me, walking alone with no hand to hold on. I used to be the happiest man in the world, but God has other ways for me and I have to continue. I used to walk this world with my chosen one, the woman of my life, but God took away the love she felt for me. Now I have to walk alone, without her, because God has other ways for me and I have to be a man and learn to live alone through my darkness. The screen appeared in front of me and it showed me the life I would have. Then a voice like a thunder said:
“Do you want to live or die? What you have seen is what you should have. I have never given so many chances. This is your last chance. I have let you live so far because I wanted you to see through my eye. If you live, you will suffer, if you want to die, you will live forever.”
I was a coward and I was afraid to die, so now I am a living dead in this world . However, I know I made the right decision because, if I had to live again, I would like to live this path of thorns that God has given me over and over, until the end of times. I am ready to suffer a thousand deaths. I am a walking dead ready to roam this world until the last of the living things has lain down to rest forever.